Trust vs Love -_-

by : miss violet

dah 2 , 3 ari xupdate blog. xtaw kenape. kemalasan yang keterlaluan disitu. cube try nyanyi lagu LAZY SONG siket. awak2 sume akan lebeyh memahami kemalasan saye ini. haha. okeyh. xnak merepek lagy. entry nie sebenarnye lebeyh kepada personal life saye. dan sejujurnye, saye xharap awak2 sume bace entry kali nie. amaran tentang entry kali nie ialah entry ni akan menjadi sangat keterlaluan panjangnye dan boleyh menyebabkan migrain serta merta bagi mereka2 yang xtahan dengan ayat2 romantis dan jiwang. haha. okeyh. WARNING SENT~

okeyh, based on the title of this entry , i will write about TRUST in my own perspective and based on my own experience. TRUST is putting your confidence in someone, forming a bond with him or her and knowing that you can rely on them for anything.**urban dictionary.hehe**

Trust for me is really a big deal. especially in my relationship. okeyh , let's talk about the past a bit :P

he is really the first person i love. even though it is only a crush. the feeling of being loved by him cant be described by words. years, i've been waited. being with someone else, doesnt get me to forget him. not even closer. i dont know how he felt about me. and i know that he will have million reason not to like me. but it didnt bother me. because i have hope, faith and trust in my love towards him. i hope that someday , he will be able to love me as well. i have faith that he is the one made perfectly for me. and i trust that one fine day, he will open his heart for me. yeah , and those 3 things brought me closer to him. not as a lover but as a friend. a close friend, that he will text every single day . from a friend, i have become someone special to him. until the day he propose me to be his girl. yup, its a bless. a real bless for me. its a joy to me. finally be able to be with him, saying i love u out loud , walk with him in public and being the only girl he loves. but i am not a witch dat can change people behaviour with a magic wand. i dont have that ability within me. as his girl, im getting jealous everyday with him, being provoke by his annoying friends. every single day i felt like im letting go of all this heartaches. it hurts. it does hurt me so much until i can barely look at him anymore. my heart getting colder. and i started to forgot how much i love him. and i thought that the best solution of this illness is to let go. but again. i dont have a gut to say gudbye. when he said sorry and blablabla**its secret okeyh :p ** the ice in my heart started to melt and i realized that i couldnt be happy if i let the one i love so much left. u must wonder why i talked about all this silly thingy when i am supposed to talk about trust. okeyh . here is when the problem arise. he has become a gud boy now. being all loyal to me and our relationship. im amazing rite. i have change a player into a loyal lover. haha. but thats not the point i want to highlight. the point is, i have stop trusting him. from the moment he broke it, trust is the hardest thing to do now. i get upset easily. i got jealous without a reason. im mad at him for crap. yar , i have change a lot because of what happened in the past. the truth is, i am afraid of getting hurt. bleeding heart is fatal now. i cant compromise with those aches again. so i train myself to be selfish. self-conquered i guess. i dont want to share him with anyone else. not even his smile. sometimes i even hate my own self to be such a person like this.

bace kisah di atas? haha. its a short essay. i wonder laa sape nak bace citer panjang2 tu kan. but that is the true story why trust is so hard to earn and yet so easy to break. saye suke sngt quote nie:

Trust is like a paper once it's crumpled it can't be perfect again

 it so trueeee~ nak iron kertas tu balek kalau da renyok susa kan. xkan jadik macam asal. paling malang sekali kalau kertas tu hangus ~ teehee~ tapi saye sedar yang saye perlu percaye kat orang yang saya syg. sebab tnpe kepercayaan, relationship is rather useless. so saye akan mencube sedaye upaya saye untuk mule mempercayai orang yang saye sayang. im back at the first step. hope, faith and trust~

 sebab saye ade satu mimpi . saye nak dye jadi seorang yang halal bagi saye, seorang suami, seorang kekasih yang setia bersame saye hingge kisah saye sampai ke noktah terakhir. 

when im older, and my daughter asked who my first love was, i dont want to have to pull the old photo album. i want to be able to point across the room and say ' he is sitting right over there' .

 saye tahu nie sume sangat awal untuk saye katakan. tapi saye sgt berharap hbgn kami kekal seperti yg kami rancangkan. sejujurnye , saye bercinte dgn dye bukan sekadar suke2, tapi saye mengharap sesuatu yang lebih dari itu. cinte sampai syurge? hehe. 

uwaaaa~ panjangnye entry untuk kali nie. frankly speaking , ehm2. saye xharap awak2 sume bace bebelan saye kali nie. cukop la dye sudi luangkan mase tgk entry nie. haha. poyo sangat kan kali nie. haihh. sebab demam kot. tu yang jadik extra annoying nie :P

specially made for him mase mule2 bercinte :PP

P/S :

1. sori entry kali nie panjang
2. sori grammar saye tunnggang langgang
3. sori kalau awak2 geli geleman bace kisah cinte saye
4. sori saye speaking macam pandai
5. tapi kalau awak2 xsuke , awak2 sume boleyh GTF .ehm2. **Go To Facebook** ;3

dishes :)

 by : miss violet

hari nie. saye bgn agak awal. thanks to my cute kuceng tue, BUBU~ sebab mengiaw macam orang gile kt sebelah telinge untuk mengejut saye. rase2 macam mak da pesan kt dye suwo kejot saye bgn pgi2. haha. so , bangun laa. kaci kucen gemok tu makan and minom. pas ue , siapkan sume house chore. and tibe part paleng besh. iaitu, memasak~ hee.

resipi hari nie ialah sup telur dan sambal terung. okeyh, tempat yg digoogle jugak seperti biase adelah my resipi.

nenek ari nie rajen dtg uma. tengok masak dan bgi tips masak siket. err. sambel cakap pasal mr vanilla. hehe. okeyh, yang tu saye suke :P

p/s : im practicing to be a good housewife. haha. joke :P

today's lunch :)

 by : miss violet

okeyh.ari ni bangun lambat jugak sebab semalam tido pukol 4 pagi. dengan mate bengkak macam panda , saye mengGAGAHkan diri bangun dan bersiap2 untuk masak. seperti biase , tengok esbok, dan , guess what? dlm freezer cuma ade ikan tenggiri and daging kambing. OH MY~ nak masak ape eah bende nie. mane reti. so , nasib baek laa berjiran dengan nenek  sendiri.. nenek offer nak masakkan rendang ayam. hee~ delicious. so saye pown cume masak makanan sampingan jek. ari ni saye masak sambal goreng dan sayur tauge goreng. yang pling leceh ialah tauge. nak dkt sejam bersihkan tauge tue. errr~

naseb baek sempat siapkan 2 dish tu sblm mak balek. kalaw x.... paham2 sendiri laa. haha. btw ,nk promote 1 link nie. due2 resipi ni amek kt situ. mmg boleyh dikatekan absolute success r :p  http://www.myresipi.com :))

so take a look at this :

p/s : the best feeling is when u cook something, and your beloved one finish it and left the empty plate for u to clean. its my best feeling when i cook for my family :)

hang out =)

 by : miss violet

harini pada pukol 2 petang , ade date dgn kawan2 and boyfie dekat secret recipe yg mahal gile tu. minom aer dye jek da dkt 10 rngget . ERR~ tapi naseb baek ade mr vanilla yg baek ati dan pemurah tu. so tadi kt SR ad birthday gurl, DEAYA RAZAK , ATIA IMANI , WAHEEDA SAMSUDDIN, SYUHADA SAHARI, HAKIM HALIM, RIDHWAN RASMAN, AKHMAL HAZIQ . and last but not least , my boyfie MOHD SYAZWAN YUSOP~ **big applause for him** haha.

datang2 jek. duduk dgn mr vanilla tu. okeyh sori kawan2 . mmg xreti nak berenggang. hehe. birthday daya, tapi xbwk present sebab belom gaji. postpone dulu ye yunk. okeyh2. pas makan beradab di SR , we move on to MCD. tp kt MCD nie cume beli mcflurry jek. its like da bezaman xmakan bende alah tu. agak teruje ye sampai tumpah kt bju, seluar, bag. OH MY~

then, jalan2 dgn mr vanilla kt plaza kota ue. err. having a big fight . saye marah tpi saye senyom. scarry kan. haha. sori encik vanilla. penat kan awak pujok saye nie. uwaaa~ saye nie mmg kuat jelesh , its my nature okeyh. kalau habit tu leyh laa kte ubah, tp nature? hmm. but ape pown, kite egt janji maseng2 kan. kuat kan kiteorang. hehe. :P

okeyh. budak gojes nie xnk senyom kt saye.

ridiculously da gemok dan comot. OH MY~ tengok badan dye tu :P

my MC-f-LARI~ :3

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

muke candid by mr vanilla. budak gemok xdapat aiskrim mmg cmnie la rupe dye :P

dan finally , kami berbaek semula sebab dye belikan saye buku cerite. okeyh~ sweet ending for today :)

p/s: this is what happen today. sorry dat i feel awkward when we met gurls. maybe sebab da lame xjumpe. but ape2 pown saye ttp sayang my girls. and ofcoz, my boyfie jugak. hehe. :P

rahsia kasih sayang ? :*

 by : miss violet

tengok title tu? hehe. tdi blogwalking jap. trjumpe plak bende nie. nak share dgn kawan2 boleyh kan. hihi~ okeyh, dengan bangganye tengok rahsia kasih sayang bulan kelahiran saye nie~ (agak poyo ye.haha)

~I AM PROUDLY MARCH PEOPLE~ 

- mudah menawan hati pasangannya ** oyeah~ ohsem fact! haha

- Sentiasa ingin didampingi oleh pasangannya. ** true statement!
- Sangat pemalu dalam meluahkan isi hati ** haha. kadang2~
- Sangat baik dalam menjaga perhubungan ** ofcos, relationship bkn macam men gem kan
-Amat sukar melupakan pasangan yang dicintai. ** nie namenye cinta awal dan akhir :P
- Persaan cemburu yang minima. ** er. minima? bkn maksimum? HAHA
- Sangat manja dan sering ingin dimanjai pasangannya. ** biasela. name pown MIAW2

- Mudah memilih pasangan tanpa berfikir dengan waras. **XLA~ sy da aim dr drjh 1. okeyh, tu lawak~

- Sentiasa mengharapkan keistimewaan dari pasangan. ** x kot. he's perfect da way he is.
- Suka menuduh melulu tanpa usul periksa. ** haha. tabiat buruk kot :*
- Berprasangka terhadap pasangan. ** err. macam ne BOLEYH BTOL NIE. :P
- Pasangam Ideal: Lahir dalam bulan 1,5,10,12.<--- okeyh yang ne x nak. saye nak MR VANILLA yang laher bulan 4 jugak~! xkire. march n april is not only ideal , it is super duper PERFECT TOGETHER. oteyh2. haha. 

okeyh , now MR VANILLA PUNYE. HE IS APRIL PERSON~

- Individu yang amat sukar untuk jatuh cinta dan amat memilih pasangan.** yeah. he is choosy~ :3
- Selalu memendam perasaan terhadap individu yang dicintai. ** kan poyo tu~
- Sukar dan malu dalam meluahkan isi hati. ** hee~ ye2 sangat pemalu dgn saye tapi...
- Sentiasa ingin diberi perhatian. ** dye pown macam anak kucen parsi. manje gile.
- Amat cemburu dalam perhubungan. ** SEE~ so true laa yunk.  =D
- Kesetiaan teguh terhadap pasangannya. ** from what i've seen, this statement is kind of true :)
- Emosi cepat terusik dan mudah terluka. ** yar right, tp xleyh challenge saye kan =P
- Sentiasa menjaga hati pasangan dan pandai memujuk. **KENAPE SUME BETOL NIE~ grm plak.
- Romantik dan terlalu romantik ** dye memey sangat romantik n I LIKE IT SO MUCH.
- Sukar melupakan pasangan walaupun dilukai. ** i hope it only happen for me k~ :S  
- Sukar berlaku curang dan amat menyayangi pasangan. ** hee~ ye2. sukar berlaku curang setelah di  brainwash oleh saye. kann~
- Kebanyakan orang yang lahir dalam bulan ini boleh dianggap ‘hamba cinta’ seperti Laila, Juliet ** no comment **
- Pasangan Ideal: Lahir dalam bulan 4, 7,11,2 ** dye patot tambah no 3 okeyh~! saye pasangan yang paleng ideal utk mr vanilla~ okeyh. perasan. but, ada saye kesah ?  :P

okeyh. kualiti gambar out seperti biase. tp saye suke :)

p/s ; sory kawan2. malas la nk letak yang len. law nk tengok , boleyh tengok di sini 

http://cintadearhaniey.wordpress.com/2007/10/31/rahsia-kasih-sayang-berdasarkan-bulan/   :)

LIAR GAME :)

by : miss violet

finish watching this drama from season 1 until its movie, THE FINAL STAGE. okeyh. citer ni mmg lari betol dari jiwa remaja saye yang romantik dan jiwang. hehe. citer nie sbnrnye anime. kebanyakan drama law amek dari anime mmg sedap kan. citer nie tentang sorang pown nie yang giler naif atau dalam bahase kesatnye BO**H... hehe. mule2 mmg saket hati ,jiwa dan sebagainye tgk perangai pompuan yang lurus bendul tu. naseb baek ade laki yg gile pandai nak tlong dye. kalau tak , musnah hidup beb. haha. hemohemo plak.

tapi kan, law nak tgk citer yang psiko, tengok laa citer nie. best jugak sampai saye mnghbiskan mase download citer nie kan~

NIE SINOPSIS DARI DRAMAWIKI :)

Kanzaki Nao is an honest college student who receives a hundred million yen one day, along with a card saying she has been chosen to take part in the "Liar Game". The aim of the game is to trick the other players out of their hundred million dollars. At the end, the winner gets the hundred million and the loser is a hundred million yen in debt. The next day, she receives notification that her opponent is her former teacher, Fujisawa Kazuo. She goes to him, seeking help, but ends up getting tricked into handing her money over. Desperate, she approaches the police for help, but they are unable to do anything. However, she is told of a mastermind swindler, Akiyama Shinichi, who is to be released from jail the next day. Desperate, she goes to him for help.

p/s ; rate sy bagi citer ni ialah  4/5 **sebab citer nie xde love2 hahaa :P

melunas rindu :P

 by : miss violet

so arini adalah ari pertame berjumpe selepas berbelas2 ari. yeahhh~ tadi act kena g sekola utk ceramah upu. then mase balek tu , sy dan mr vanilla pown outing same2.awesome sgt. tapi ad jugak yg xbaper nak awesome. huwaa~ taw laa mr vanilla saye gojes gile, tapi xyah la nk usya dpn mate sy. buat berbuluu saje kannn~ wtv laa readers. malas nk ckp banyak. tengok bawah nie :

okeyh. i shud buy DSLR i guess.

p/s ; awesome moment with u, encik vanilla. (: